I saw myself in a big room. The room was filled with lots of women…all different ages, but they were in beautiful dresses, hair done, makeup…looking their best, and there I was in rags, no makeup…just raw, simple me. We were all in a big circle facing the middle, suddenly the lights dim and all that I can see is a bright chandelier in the center. We all fall to our knees and in he walks.
I can't see his face, just his strong chest, his hands, his jaw and mouth…He looks and feels safe, loving, strong, but gentle. He is going to choose someone to dance with.
I feel like I can’t even look up. I feel so unworthy…not good enough, not pretty enough, smart enough, tall enough, rich enough…just not enough. I knew there were so many others in the room that were more prepared for this moment, that would look better than me…I knew I didn’t deserve this dance but I also knew it was all I wanted, and needed. As if my soul was made for this…it was the deep hurt and ache welling up in my soul. It felt like it had been there my whole life…I knew I needed him.
He stands still…looking around, then he begins to walk. I can’t look up. I hold my breath. Tears are welling in my eyes and my face is to the ground with my eyes closed.
Suddenly…everything stops, my whole world stops…I look up and I see his feet. “Surely he didn’t stop at me…” But he did..
He reaches His hand out and smiles, “Dance with Me.”
He didn’t ask, he told me…as if it was where I belong, with him, in his arms.
I started to cry…”Im not dressed for this.”
“Your heart is all I see…”
“I don’t know the steps….”
“I will lead you…”
“I am not good enough..”
“But I am enough for you…”
I reach my hand out and he pulls me hard but gently…with purpose, with love. He pulls me tight…so tight to his chest. I dare not look up. I close my eyes…but I can feel him smile.
We begin to dance. I’m shaking, trying to pull away but he holds me even tighter. I bite my lip…and he rubs his thumb over my hand as if to say…”Just let it go…”
I took a deep breath and with every move I began to feel my ragged brokenness just fall away, I feel light, I feel safe, I feel wanted, loved, chosen, redeemed. I feel good enough because He is enough. He leads the steps, and I follow. The more I follow the easier it is to dance. My dress turns to pure white, He kisses me on the forehead.
“I made you, I love you, I want to dance with you everyday.”
This is not a story...this is a vision I had. Let me explain. When I was in high school, sitting in chapel I asked God to reveal Himself to me in a vision. I wanted to see Him, feel Him....and ever since that simple ask...He has.
I felt led today to share this one.
This is about the intimacy of God. I never understood this, this type of romantic love the Lord has for us. But when I encountered Him in this way it filled every hole I have been left with from broken relationships in this world, and it took a weight away for my husband to fill. This is a deep soul drenching love. This is a heavenly romance, one that no one on earth can match and is supposed to match.
So I share this to hopefully encourage someone. To say that God loves you relentlessly. He wants to reveal His romantic head over heels love for you today, and all we have to do is ask.
And every morning I wake up and say, "Lord I am ready to dance today..."
How has the Lord revealed Himself to you? Please share, if you are willing below or as a comment on facebook.