I have not written a post in a few months, honestly I haven't written much of anything besides my desperate, vulnerable prayers to the Lord. I have gone to sit down and type something to inspire and motivate you multiple times, but I just feel like I haven't had much to say. I feel the pressure of the expectation I put on myself to write once a month, to produce, to keep pushing towards my writing goals and dreams. But that's not been possible lately, and that's just not the season I have been in, maybe you can relate. Things have just felt so foggy, so full, so flipped in a direction I never thought my life would go or dream it would go that I am left with a lot of thoughts but not many words to string together. I think that's what happens when CHANGE has come. There is that word, it makes some of you cringe, or maybe it makes you excited, it makes you worry, it makes you doubt. The what, when, where, why, and how? All of those questions come rather quickly after the news of change, and then you're left trying to answer those questions from a very small view point of your own life. A zoomed in view so to say, instead of the zoomed out view that the Father has.
I read recently that change is the only constant we really have in our lives, and isn't that the truth. Sometimes the change comes suddenly and other times it comes so gradually that you don't notice till a few weeks or months later, but change is always coming, change will always happen. The question isn't (the 4 W's and the H for my grammar friends); the true question is how will I handle the change when it comes.
Change can be positive or negative, big or small, but it leaves us all searching for something to ground us. Looking for a bit of normalcy and rhythm till we can wrap our minds around our new reality. As I have navigated the change in my life that has unfolded the past two months, I have done some things right and some things wrong. And I will say, the change coming for my family and myself is amazing. It's good, it's Godly, it's some of my dreams coming true and some dreams I didn't even know I had being gifted to me by the grace of God! It's remarkable really. I am humbled. But what I am learning is that as we step out in faith, say yes to God, and He allows the winds of change to come, it by no means, means we will know every step we are taking. It actually feels like a giant trust fall with Him, like we are wearing a blindfold and running listening for His voice and just following that.
So, if you are here, reading this and you are in a season of change, I want to simply remind you of Truths from the Father that He has for you His daughter. Again, I don't have many words, or poetic sentences for you today. But what I have is my real, raw self that is working through this beautiful wild season of change clinging to the Word of God like it's the breath in my lungs, because it truly is. And I have tasted and I have seen that the Lord is good, and I long for you to taste too.
What if we walked through seasons of change not entertaining the question, "What if it doesn't work out?" But instead believe with faith bursting in our hearts, "What if it does?" I smile as I type that. It's risky, it's bold, but beautifully surrendered to the King of Heaven. I'm going for it.